LengThye..

Yday go check up,unfortunely doc was not in due to emergency...so...i see another doc for temporary....my problem still exists and my cysts still there and looks bigger....start worry is this a big prob???

so early morning at office, i start reading and looking for article about 'ovarian cysts'...phew~~~really worry..but think that i have not serious symptons guess its not so critical and i guess if it is really harmful...doc sure will consult me stop my pregnancy.....so 50% 50% of my feeling now...worry and happy....

 If i not mistaken, if the cysts growing bigger, i need to operation or wait until deliver time only take it out and deliver by casearean...so, another problem out...$$$$....i guess we need 6k at least for the casearean...so i need to plan out more and more.....phew~~~ pececk......but i m loving my baby...now i really hoping my baby healthy and can deliver smoothly....GOD....PLease help me...i know i shall appreciate watever i m having it now.....i m really appreciate...but i hope my baby is healthy and i will thank GOD.......sure i m thanking now....and forever...

I know and can see hubby also worry about this...but he did not voice out much.....i also dunno how to answer him and also no mood to console him...cos  i m also down....life is like tat .,...

Fren-sn said i m the hang fuk among all of them...yea..i think so....i really appreciate all the thing that GOD given to me...THANKS again....so i must work out more to reply all my goods here....

Before bed, i was thinking the past with hubby...think back all the sweet memory...its really sweet and we also have sour time....thats break time...i happy until i tear...and i also tear due to break time.....LIFE - Happy + SAD....

:P.........See one step do one step? Or think before you do? OH...thats a 'mao dun' Q...no one can answer it...

 

12th Oct 07 is my 4 months prenancy...hmmm...sometime feel normal sometime feel worry...haha...wat is this ?

so today 10 10 will go for my checkup, read from book that 4 months we can get to know the baby sex...hmmm...so kan cheong also har...eventhough baby gal or boy also ok...but really happy to know my first baby sex....hehe

human is 'mao dun'...sometime think tat gal is good..but sometime also worry cant get boy...haha...if get twin with one boy one gal easy lar..dunid to worry so much...kekeke...

i so tire and no mood to work sometime....but thats is not choice...cos this is my job and i need to earn 奶粉钱ah.......see fren or coll say their experience like very rich ar...can hire confinement lady...can do this and that ...haiii....but why i cant ler...but i shall appreciate cos my mum can cook for me...thats the best ler..she knows wat i like to eat she can cook well to me....somemore i m not like those ppl can ask maid to work one lor...you can see that like the cleaner i also din ask her do much wat,...just let her do watevr she likes and as long as she do..tats enuf...

I shall plan out my meal ...go healthy meal ler...let my baby healthy also..YES!! Kambateh!!!

Today..hmm actually no today..is few days already....feel 'mun mun di'...dunno what to do and i think i always 'yi san yi kuai' ah...feel here pain there pain?And keep worry dunno anything happen to my baby or nt?

 haissss....so emotional....these day i keep thinking what shall i do the best for my baby...and i m thinking to tell boss about my condition at least he will care about me...on certain work load...but cant tell yet ler...let it stable first...but i really start tire and dunno do what also think to sleep...

yday i m so angry...hubby go drink(yalar, i m the one allowed him go lar) but i ledi mention to him must back early cos i need to pay the car installment...but he back late...then i start mumbling and sms him ledi..i angry until i go out myself....at last he called me...and keep ask where am i....i cried....when the time i heard his sound..even though i m angry....but at last i can control my emotion....hehe....

when he back he keep saying i cant angry...i must understand...and next time i cant go out myself...ya...i knw then..but that time i really 'fo je gan' ledi...not bother what happen liao..jus angry nia...shit...now think back i really bad...i shall car my bibi...sorry baby....i will take care of you ...i promise i won let this happen again yea...forgive me....

sorry to  ur dad tooooo...:p

 

 

After the trip from CHINA, i m suspecting i m pregnant....i m so happy, but i also worry at the time.Because i worry it will disappointed me...hehe...but at last i told hubby and i go to buy the test to try....HAHAHHA..YEAH....i m pregnant......

at the first time, i can see hubby so shock...haha.cos he is worry about the $$, but actually inside he is happy to be PAPA...at the same time, i called mum...she is happy with me and even all my family member....YES, this is my family member i LOVE u all.....then his turn to call his parent...his dad reaction make me nt feeling well...and disappointed...n also his mum...if i  m the one pregnant first ..then the way they reply will be diff....BUT sometime i think...i live is for myself...right?no for others..no matter wat happen...to me...is myself and hubby hapi will do lar...hahaha...so i m nt bother at all...just keep myself healty and happy..

 Happy mohter happy kids...CUTIE BABY....yeah1!!!

 Anyway...sometime i feel sien of the way their family talk....so i just keep quite...and look at them...haha..funny right?and i nt happy with wat his dai so 'gun' me a lot....this cant that cant...walau eht....pecek la...just go down a while talk so much....geram lar...then keep ask why nt back lar..tis la tat la...walau eh...u tot who are you? i knw i need more rest...but i also need to take care my work wat....boss ledi complaint..so how can i go so early...u tot  i dun want meh?

sometime is see his sil i still  nt like and feel dun wan to see her....she spoilt my plan a lot...so sien..but after hate i will think tat as GUAN YIN said i have to hapi wit wat i have noe....

yeah..that;s right!!知足常乐。.....

 

 

 

This is my first time to travel because of work and it is far from hubby....and it is the first time i left him alone after married.But for me, this is a good chance to let him miss me...kekeke...

I bought a wallet for his mum,but i dunno whether his mum like it or not...cos she looks nothing..and din show happy or nt...and that time i suddenly think of my mum...i shall buy for her as well..but i knw mum dun like this type of things and she likes we give cash better and she can buy watever she likes...hmmm... but i think i will something to her...cos she is my Lovely MUM.

You know i really feel myself too sensitive?or bcos of LOVE...i dun like him chat with others..i dun like him talk to others gal gal....yes ..i m selfish...sometime i really think that my best frens will 'gau yan' him...so start from that day...i so dislike her...and i start feel she is diff than wat i knw...so i also confuse now...i did feel she sometime jealous wat i have..so i very worry also....GOD>>>...i knw i have to happy wat i have...i actualy really hapi..and try to  maintain it...so i thanks GOD always....so i m here just liek to voice out wat i nt hapi n sahre with u....after i 'san' ledi..it hink i wll hapi and get more confident ....YES>>>i m back1!!

i got many things to think recently....then i get the accident which is not really serious..i think this is bcos god popi popi us...thanks god....

somemore i got attending a lot of wedding...i got a lot of affairs..haha until end of the month....after attending this all events...i have many 'kan chu'...when i was there....with hubby...i really love him more n more...i start 'yan siong' him...i feel myself like falling in love to him again....i also thanks god give me such hubby...GOD..i would like thanks GOd again here...i will understand the 'qian' i get last week...i hope to folo u...but i think i have start the engine....then i dunno how to stop it..since there are so many partner with me..pls give me some time to settle it...pls continue popi me...i knw i m selfish and greedy..but i will try my best to do it...Please forgive me nt folo GOd this time...but i will always remember this 知足常乐...i get the meaning...i will learn to balance and feel it..THANKSSSS....

2007/06/24 HOT

Today is bil's gal site wedding lunch...we went to her hometown for lunch...yeah...is good journey.but damn tire....wake up early morning..n slept late....somemore b4 tis day.was angry with hubby...he went out..he go to subang...he back late..i sms him asked him back...but he did nt...he keep say cant back dun want watever...i dman TL..i scold him i ordered him back..but he said i m alwzzzz do sms to him control him dun let him go out....i dunno i dunno...i cant let him out so late..i cant cant cant...i cant control myself to let him go like tat...i knw i m over...bt i cant even control myself to stop doing tat.!!!.... by the end...till tis morning..everything is stop...no quarrel no argument and nothing to discuss..he jus let it be...nothing to solve...cos both of us are nt talk abt it....WE R TIRE

So we as usual....talk back..the prob keep there...i also man chang..but i also lazy to talk...cos it is never ending with this topic....STOPPPP....topic

I envy her..all ppl praise her...i envry...bt i knw i shall nt...so i keep tell myself u can think this stupid things..so i tell myself also..u need to earn money..u need to work out and get rich...u must then oni u can move out....HELP!!!!

 

 

Me so disappointed..this mth will 'sek za wu' again i think...cos now ledi feel pain as usual....all the signal when coming is appear....why why why...cant get neh?aikkssss....dun 'fang qi' lar....god is fair one. :p